Raindrops: emotions

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Jun 7, 2011

Dancing on the Inside

Joy
I'm dancing on the inside
To be loved
Is the greatest gift of all

Mar 17, 2011

Emotions (untitled)

Emotions.
I swim through a sea of emotions.
Tossed and turned.
No moorings.

Calm.
In me.
I float on the gentle waves.

I have no words (untitled)

I have no words.

highs
lows
ups
downs

a forest of feelings

Where to begin to describe?

I have no words

I miss you.

What was is gone.
I've lost what we were,
What you were to me.
My star,
My guide,
My example,
My help.

I leaned on you.
Now, I stand on my own.
A good and wonderful thing.
I have strength within.

But I miss relying on you.

I delight in what is,
But I miss what was.

I don't need you (untitled)

I don't need you.

I need to see beauty,
Like the beauty I've seen in you.
I need to feel alive,
Like I do when I think of you.
I need so much that I've found in you.
But it's not you that I need.

I don't need you.

A love so deep (untitled)

A love so deep
So strong
So pure.

Freely given.

Endless.
Timeless.

My love for you.

Joy explodes inside me (untitled)

Joy explodes inside me.

Inside
No room
For all the joy.

Joy wells up,
Bubbles over,
Flows out to the universe
And back again.

Feelings strong (untitled)

Feelings strong
Now muted.
A roaring stream
Now a quiet river.

My inspiration is gone (untitled)

My inspiration is gone.
In love?
No more.
That love,
Risen out of
A sea of illusion,
Is gone.
He no longer fills my thoughts.
No anguish.
No highs.
A peaceful contentment
Is now mine.
No writing a poem
To wring out emotions.
When emotions settle, inspiration flees.

Scared (untitled)

Scared
Temptation
Can I resist?
Do I want to?
How do I separate your call, Lord,
From Satan's illusion?

hate (untitled)

hate

black
ugly
slimy
oozing

bottled up
held tight
exploding

dripping
covering
hiding

twisted
bent

cold
hard
silent

hate

He made me believe he cared (untitled)

He made me believe he cared.
He said he was my friend
... and I believed him.

Was it a lie?

Or are his feelings
as jumbled
as mine?

Was he lying to me,
or is he lying to himself?

Deception (untitled)

Deception.
Beautiful lies.

I dared to hope.

... deceived.

The lies shatter.
I'm left alone.

Mar 15, 2011

I don't know how to feel (untitled)

I don't know how to feel.

Should I love him?
Should I hate him?

He makes me react.

angry
alive
hurt
in love

He makes me long for... something

For you, Lord.

He makes me fall in love with you.

passion (untitled)

passion
strong
desire
wanting

letting go
hurting

Angry, so very angry (untitled)

Angry, so very angry.
Why am I so angry?
The anger consumes me,
Eats me up inside.
I hate him.
Why does it matter?
Why does he matter?
I hate him.

No...
I don't hate him,
I can't hate him.
I hate how he makes me feel.
How do I feel?
I don't know, I don't know...
Confusion, anger, hurt, love
Love?
Desire?

I don't want to like him.
I don't want to care about him.
Too hard.
I want to be friends.
I want him to go away.
He challenges me.
Do I want his friendship?
Yes... so very badly.
He hurts me...
His criticisms sting...
He doesn't understand.
And yet
Somehow
We are not enemies.
We argue and fight,
Yet there is something there
I don't want to lose.

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